Autonomous Source

August 07, 2005

Zero

When I started the countdown ten days ago, I wasn't sure what would happen when it reached zero. I knew, however, that something had to happen to this blog, or it would just fade away. Some bloggers give up their blogs consciously and announce their retirement and make their goodbyes, but others just let their blogs drift into oblivion without even realizing it. That's what was happening to Autonomous Source. I was finding it easier and easier to ignore my blog, and wasn't really enjoying working on it. I gave myself ten days to work on the problem. At the end, the blog would either be revitalized or taken to the glue factory.

To help towards revitalizing it, I had the editor killed. Again. The editor was the undead ghoul that lived in my superego and mercilessly critiqued everything I wrote -- usually with the cutting taunt: "Who cares?" He constantly smothered ideas before they had a chance to develop and guided me towards mediocrity. He's dead for sure this time, I think. A stake to the heart took him down, after which he was decapitated, his head boiled in vinegar and his body burnt and buried at a crossroads. He's not coming back again. Really. I hope.

With him dead, I hope to write more about what's interesting me at any moment, not what some subconscious hack thinks I should be writing about. That means more about the kids, crackpot economics, movie reviews, random thoughts, and links to oddball cool stuff I've stumbled across in my infrequent surfing adventures. I'll still interested in Canadian politics, but mostly I'm pretty disappointed in it right now, so I'll probably be restricting my blather on that topic. I also may be a little more inconsiderate of the views of my readers. The editor had me worrying about offending some people and prevented me from writing on some topics. From now on I'll be writing what I think. Maybe. We'll see what happens.

I've also buffed up a few things on the page, but not as much as I'd have liked. I actually toyed with the idea of overhauling the whole page and giving it a crisp new look, but that just ain't gonna happen. I remember the headaches when I set this thing up originally, and don't want to go through it again. Beside, I kinda like the present look. A pleasing layout encourages me to write, for some reason.

I've added a few new blogs to the blogroll. The old roll was a little stale, and now I have some interesting blogs from a wider range of the political spectrum. It doesn't mean I agree with them, but I'll be looking at what they have to say. I hope to read most of them regularly, but time for me is in short supply right now.

Time is the biggest roadblock this blog's continued existence. Max and Talia are extremely demanding of me. The days go by with one crisis following quickly on the heels of another. It's busy, busy, busy around here, and thoughtful blogging just doesn't fit in very well. I've determined that trying to write in the brief moments of calm is a recipe for insanity: I'm inevitably interrupted and always wind up frustrated. I've decided I won't be doing it any more. Writing will be confined to evenings, nap-times, and the two days a week they're at day care.

I want to keep this blog going. I have no delusions of becoming a famous writer, but I want to have something to show for these years that I'm spending away from the workforce. Sure, two smart, healthy, confident kids are great, but it doesn't compare to an archive of blog posts about Paul Martin, the American trade deficit, the Most Annoying Canadian competition, and the Teletubbies. So Autonomous Source is now officially out of stasis, hopefully I can find the enthusiasm to keep it alive.

Thanks for reading. I appreciate every hit, link and comment (well, except for the spam). I couldn't do this if there was no one paying attention, so thanks for spending a bit of your time checking out what I have to say.

Posted by Bruce Gottfred at August 7, 2005 12:32 PM
Comments

Keep plugging away at the VDU face - and yes write for yourself, or a mate down the pub - not for the whole world!

Posted by: Tim at August 7, 2005 01:07 PM

I'm glad your staying - I truly enjoy reading your posts.

Posted by: Darcey at August 8, 2005 09:54 AM

Muito obrigado.

Posted by: Anderw at August 8, 2005 10:30 AM

Hooray!
Endless pics of the terribly, two-teaming, tantrum tossing twins!

Posted by: René at August 8, 2005 05:16 PM